July 18th

Ok so Ben is doing so much better now and we have been out of the hospital for a while. Thank goodness. They have diagnossed him with cronic stomach migraines so he is finally on something to help. =) anywho it is the middle of July already and it's stinkin hot. I can't wait for the next few weeks, we have so much to do! Oh and I have been thinking more and more about starting a business of my own so that when Ben goes back to work I can maybe go with sometimes instead of always staying here. But I need a lot of hard work and practice for what I want to do and I need to step it up. Hopefully if I am succesful I will be able to make enough to support myself and not have to rely on anyone. Plus I have been at my job for a long time and I need to make sure I can be stable money wise before I make any sudden moves. It's gunna take some work but I think I can do it. Plus im still young and have lots of time =) Oh and if I do start a business it won't be anyone's accomplishment but my own, (according to Obama's last speech someone else builds a business for you, you don't do it yourself BS! its hard work and dedication that gets things done. I hope he doesnt get elected again, he's ruining the country... but that's just my opinion.)

not out of the woods yet

So since last time I wrote Ben was getting out of the Hospital and he was on the road to recovery..or what we thought was the road to recovery.. He is now back at the Hospital weighing only 135lbs.. He is 6'0 mind you and was 40lbs heavier in January. So anyway he continues to throw up and not eat or sleep. When we took him in to the hospital last saturday they kicked him out saying he was "healthy" with no real reason as to why he was still feeling like this. Well tuesday rolled around and he had some appointments, he was admitted that day and now has a feeding tube because he cannot eat without throwing it back up. He has such bad stomach pains that he can't eat or sleep and no doctor knows why. It's so hard to see him like this, but I pray everyday that he will get better. He continues to go through test after test, hopefully things will get better.. It just seems like one thing after another. And on top of it my brother got suspended for stepping on a capsol that made the hallway smell bad. So because the capsol is clasified as a "stink bomb" he was on emergency expulsion... so they now got it reduced but he is suspended for two weeks and only gets to go back to school for finals. I think this is a ridiculous punishment for something that smells bad for 15min. I keep telling myself things will get better, I believe it will get better i'd just like to see it happen soon.

April 9th 2012

Ben is finally out of the hospital and has finally been diagnosed with something. Thanks goodness. I feel so bad that Ben had to go through all that he did. He has been to hospital after hospital and we finally had to take him to Seattle to get him in the right hands. It turns out that he has an adrenal deficency and a kidney stone in his kidney that wasn't small enough to go through the uriter. He has a stent in now but soon he wont have that or the kidney stone and will be on the road to recovery. So glad, cause now he can come home for good after he heals up a bit. =) Its been a long three months but there is no where else I would rather be but by his side. He is amazing and makes me feel like no one ever can. <3 He's my one and only. So glad I met him! Hope everyone had a good easter!!

Hospital

So Ben is back in the hospital and it sucks but im hoping this is the last time. He needs to get better so we can move on lol but we did have a good weekend last weekend. We went to Portland with my parents and it was great! I hadnt seen him in like 9 days and when his mom dropped him off I was sooo happy =) I miss him alot though it's been almost another week since I have seen him and it's killing me.

Feb 1st 2012

So it's been a while since my last post so I figured I would write something. Since the last time I wrote Ben & I have enjoyed the holidays and enjoyed a little snow. Our parents have met and get along great, we just wish they could have met under different circumstances. Ben has been sick for the past few days, I took him to the hospital 2 times last weekend and then his parents took him in again on Sunday. He is starting to get maybe a little better but he still is out of work and doing a lot of laying down. I just hope this all passes soon. Anywho I guess I will post more soon. =)

Thanksgiving 2011

This thanksgiving was so much fun. Went to Castle Rock with Ben and had thanksgiving with his family. We started out the trip last wednesday after work. It was a long cold drive cause he had to cap off his heater since it was leaking antifreeze. Well anyway we got there around 9:30 or 10 and I met his family. The next morning we went outside and Ben showed me around, I got to pet a cow lol then we went inside and played pictionary... not so great at it but it was fun. =) Then soon after we had dinner. The next day we went fourwheeling for a couple hours... got stuck once so that wasn't too bad. After we got changed we went with his dad to go sight seeing pretty much. It was a busy day cause right after that we went bowling.. I lost the first game but beat everyone the second game. It was so much fun. I loved it, im sad it's already over. Well on Saturday Bens family and a few of their friends went out to go play in the snow and go sledding. That was a ton of fun too. By the time this whole trip was over I was so exhausted. Im still tired. It was a great thanksgiving and im so glad I got to spend that time with Ben and his family.

First Snow

So its been a couple of weeks since my last post, but a lot has happend. Today it started snowing, so thats exciting. It's hard to sit here at work and not try to go play in the snow or go home nad get some hot chocolate and cuddle up in a blanket. =) but also last post I had mentioned I had a movie date.. well that went really well. We haven't really been apart much since. He met my parents last week and im going to meet his next weekend over thanksgiving. We are going to see his family all weekend so im pretty excited. its going to be a little road trip Oh and the best part... On friday (11-11-11) we went out to Anthonys to eat. Well Ben had told me he had to drop someone off after work and then go get some things from his trailor. So that was fine, gave me time to get ready. He came over and we both got ready to go out for dinner cause we didnt have to be at dinner till 6:30. Well we got to the resturaunt and we ordered food and drinks.. well soon after that I got a little suprise. I was facing away from everything so I couldn't see the waitress coming but she brought out flowers and set them on our table. 6 red roses and Ben asked if we could be officailly together. It was really suprising and im hard to suprise. =) they were gorgeous though and it was so sweet. He had it all planned out and after work he took the flowers to the resturaunt ahead of time. He planned it out well I must say lol